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July 8, 2004 8:12 AM

[Metamorphosis]

Just hit this page for the first time in over a month. I knew it had been a long time since I had posted anything here, but I didn't realize it had been this long. I've often wondered what was going to happen to this space since my life has shifted so much. Considering a few reasons why the posts have been so sparce:

• I've been busy. We've simply been so busy getting adjusted to our new surroundings, new career, new church, etc. to worry about posting something here on a regular basis. The only problem with this excuse is that I've probably been posting more frequently to our family blog than I ever have. So much for that excuse.
• I don't need this site like I used to. Part of the reason that myinwardjourney was birthed almost 5 months ago was the fact that I needed a place to speak my mind without fear of what others in my life were going to think. I don't have that fear much anymore. Just being out of the watchful eye of a church (in relation to me being a minister) has helped relieve a lot of that pressure. Yet, I really do have things to say still & our family blog isn't always going to be the place to say those things.

We have some friends in town. We had good conversation last night. His spiritual journey right now lines up a lot with what my wife & I have been experiencing over the past year. Not exactly the same direction our life has been headed, but in a new direction for him for sure. One thing he said to us really struck me: "You guys are the only ones I can really talk to about these things." This was the exact reason I began this blog back in February! I think it struck me because I think there is more to this than I've really considered before. I think there are a lot of men & women in ministry positions out there right now, struggling to keep their heads above water, questioning things in their life, feeling like God is moving them in a new direction ... they're fearful, they're weary, and they feel alone. I've been there. My friend is in such a place right now. There must be others as well.

I'm considering transforming this place. I think it has served its initial purpose in my own life, for the most part, and perhaps it needs to serve the same in the lives of others. I haven't thought through all of the details, but I want to make this a public, anonymous blog for those in ministry positions seeking an ear to share the raw, intimate struggles that they are facing as God is moving them into new places. I want to open this space up so that these people can do here what I have done for all of these months: talk freely about what they are experiencing without fear of what other people they know will think or do because of it. Anonymous posting from various people sharing their inward journeys with others. We'll see what lies ahead, but I'm excited about the possibilities ....

Posted by Kristo on July 8, 2004 at 08:12 AM
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