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May 25, 2006 11:15 AM

[Unknown.Longing]

It's amazing to me how circular my journey with God can be. It seems like it ebbs & flows more than it is steady & constant. I've always heard people describe life with a picture of a roller coaster ride - full of twists & turns, ups & downs. I can see that, especially if you realize that the ride comes back full circle and begins again. Just when you have been zooming down the tracks at breakneck speeds, only gaining the confidence to let loose, raise your hands & yell, the ride slows down again - then it's back up that hill, slow & steady.

I used to stress about the valleys, or the perilous climbs up the steep hills. I'm much more apt to anticipate with excitement the plunge that is ahead & the thrill ride that the journey affords.

Three months into a new ministry position. The relationships are becoming richer - our lives and home are opening more and more to the people God places in our pathway. I was describing my feelings to a friend of mine the other day. She was asking how things were going with the 'new' ministry position. I said something to her that I didn't think I might ever say again: "I didn't realize how much I missed ministry." It's true. I miss the relationships. I miss the sense that you are contributing to other people's journeys in an eternal way - something you just can't get with most 9 to 5 jobs.

Granted, I'm in a unique position - not serving full-time in ministry and in a bit of a progressive church. I'm in a very freeing environment - one in which I am encouraged to push the limits and do what it takes to lead young adults to the throne of God & equip them in their spiritual walks. I cannot express how exciting it is to be given responsibilities and total freedom to pursue them at the same time. Like I said: it is a unique position. I've been around long enough and known enough friends serving in churches to know that. I have seen the heart breaks, the feeling of being trapped in a box, and many times the belittle-ing and constrainment of those who are supposed to have been handed positions of spiritual guidance.

I'm thankful for the journey - I truly am. Both the ups & downs, the ebb & flow. And I'm thankful that God has led me to a place at this particular moment in time in my journey with Him to journey with other young adults as we seek Him together.

Posted by Kristo on May 25, 2006 at 11:15 AM
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