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March 15, 2004 10:54 AM

[New.Day]

"But there's one other thing I remember, and remembering, I keep a grip on hope: God's loyal love couldn't have run out, his merciful love couldn't have dried up. They're created new every morning. How great your faithfulness! I'm sticking with God (I say it over and over). He's all I've got left." (Lamentations 3:21-24, The Message)

What a difference a night's sleep can make. Yesterday was another one of those days - the kind I've been having more and more lately. I almost dreaded going to the church. I sat while our pastor was speaking & felt numb. It felt like I was sleep-walking through my ministry tasks throughout the day. Felt good to get home & unwind with my wife at the end of a long day.

We have a job opportunity possibly knocking on the door this week and we want to get it so bad. It's not that we want out of the church or out of 'the ministry' (there goes that phrase again), but more that we want to be free to serve Him without the bonds of the traditional church. The years here have been good, but we feel like our time here is done - our work has finished. We're excited and anxious at the same time over what is next.

I should know by the end of the week whether we will get a chance for an interview or not. I have a friend who works there and he has given my name/resume to his supervisor. Hopefully that will be enough to get to meet him face to face. I feel this is the only shot I have as I can't imagine anyone pulling my resume out of a pile for anything but church/ministry jobs. It's a job that I could do well & have been doing the type of work for the past 8 years, just not in an 'official' position (it's computer related). I just need someone to give me a chance.

Here I go - I was going to type about how much better I felt this morning (which I do) - just got off track. God is so good. He knows what is best for me and my family. It's trusting Him in that which is difficult. Trusting that if I don't get this job that He has something better in mind is hard to think about.

Posted by Kristo on March 15, 2004 at 10:54 AM | Permalink